Patience is not simply the ability to wait - it's how we behave while we're waiting.
Joyce Meyer
So here I am at the end of an amazing whirlwind in Ontario...heading back to Victoria to wait. I am waiting on the oncotype test to tell us whether I need chemo; I am also waiting on the genetic testing, because as the radiation oncologist said today, if that comes back positive, that is a different conversation - some pretty intensive surgery will be required.
It's amazing to me and yet not really, how much of this process involves waiting. My husband hates waiting! He will choose the shortest line in the grocery store or on the highway. Waiting is frustrating to him. I don't love waiting either...I wonder who does? And yet there are times when waiting is required, where we have no control over a situation, the outcome, or the news we are hoping to hear. We wait to hear if we got the job, if we are pregnant, if our loved one is OK after a health scare. What do we do in the waiting?
I keep realizing that there is much in this journey that requires awareness and intentional thinking and I think I just found another place. So I head back West having had a great time here. I have seen some friends and visited my favourite pedicure and massage people - so good for my stressed shoulders and neck; I have had meetings I needed to have and I have met a couple of great doctors who are prepared to treat me in Peterborough, however the tests turn out.
I think if I keep my focus there, and then return to my West coast home and my awesome place of work,( where 'check-in and 'best wishes' texts, emails and phone calls have come in over my 3 days away), and do my job for the next few weeks - waiting will be OK. Waiting is part of our life's work - what we do in that space is up to us.
We must let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the one that is waiting for us.
Joseph Campbell